Creating: Working on slowly painting and putting together my Archangel because I just picked up my caster (Lylyth the Herald) and need to build her, but dragon pieces were taking up all the space. It looks badass.
Dragon in progress
Feeling: relieved, and actively un-stressing (which can sometimes be a little stressful, but that’s what Imagine Dragons is for). Yesterday, well, actually since the weekend I’ve felt kind of on the verge of a meltdown between feeling generally overwhelmed with life and secret projects and mother’s day (don’t get me started) – it just didn’t let up until I let myself spill to some people. I don’t know why I suddenly (or not so suddenly) have a hard time telling people who I know care and are there for me that I’m feeling kind of depressed and on the verge of a breakdown. For some reason I feel like I need to take that on alone and it’s only after I break my own walls and admit it out loud (or in text) that I begin to feel better and less overwhelmed.
Playing: WoW – I’m almost almost to cap now! I’m over half-way to level 90, and I have entered the Vale of Eternal Blossoms so I’m actually battling level 90 things and earning more XP, which is great. I also found (finally) the alchemy vendor so I can make potions, and the person who you give the motes of harmony to. So I bought some Golden Lotus because you earn 2-3 XP/Skill with those in alchemy instead of just one. My Alchemy is 590-something now, which is exciting.
Watching:Strip Search! It’s become a habit of mine to draw while watching episodes. In that vein, tomorrow (Thursday 5/16) at 11pm EST I’m going to do a live-stream on KieryGeek with a friend and we’re going to do our version of a strip search challenge, so you should watch it. It auto-saves and posts to youtube too, so it’ll be up again after the fact.
This is the progression – from concept to finish (with a blurry note in between) of my latest painting.
It’s 6×6 Acrylic on a gallery wrapped canvas. It’s a weird image, two things that don’t really go together, but this is how I’ve pictured myself for most of my life – a rose hidden inside armor – and now, as the rose peeks out through the helm, for the first time and experiences life and sunlight and wind.
I’ve been sick since last Friday with a cold. I’ve quarantined myself from most of the people I would usually hang out with in order to spare any exposure. I’ve been trying to rest, emphasis on trying.
Meanwhile, I’ve been itching to paint but have had no energy to. The drive to put something on canvas is just welling up inside, and I feel like I would burst if it weren’t for the being really tired part. The weather, the rain, seeing, that’s been happening lately, noticing little details – the textures of rocks on the beach, the piercing blue eyes of an actor, that Jeremy Renner has really got the looking-cool-while-pointing-objects-thing down, those moments when you accidentally make eye contact with someone, or weirdly connect.
I like piercing eyes, human moments, connection…..little things that we generally ignore and brush over, little things that in some place in my soul, well up and make me come alive.
The feathers in the left (before) image are mine, I’ll probably add them back in, and the trim on the right is *actually* silver, the fog is more foggy, but yeah, image quality. I’m trying to go for the just-out-of-the-shower-and-drew-on-the-mirror-look – so I applied some heavily watered down white paint, and went over it with a paper towel, and then drew on it with my fingers to create authentic finger writing.
I Got some shiny gold paint and colored all the plated sections which really seems to add *a lot* of epic-ness to my little army that was missing before. Not sure how well that comes across because of my very red side table, but it at least puts my army back on par with Alex’s and the rest of everyone else’s.
I think I secretly feel the need to prove myself with my army, because I’m an artist and the majority of the paints I’m using are my own artist-grade paints that I’ve accumulated for my work. I feel like I need to really bring everything I have to the table with these and make them badass (and pink, which is remarkably difficult) and perfect which is hard for someone who’s not a perfectionist with things she does for herself.
I guess I want people to feel the same way about the paint job on my army as I do about theirs. I love them, and I think the amount of thought and artistry and work they put into it is amazing and their armies are just so interesting to look at. I want to feel that way about my army, and I want people to think that too. I think with the metal element I’m getting there, and I think by the time they’re all washed and sealed I’ll be pretty close.